My birthday was this past Friday. I really don't care much about my birthday since becoming a mother. Noah's birthday is far more important to me. This was actually my third birthday since Noah was born, and the first two were amazing. There is just something special about spending your birthday as a mother after spending a birthday (or two, or three, etc)
wanting to be a mother. Even though my birthday is not very important to me, there was still something magical about it.
Well, that spell was broken this year.
Frankly, the first half of the day
sucked. Noah is normally incredibly pleasant and well behaved, but he chose my birthday to act like a 2 year old. He decided to whine and cry over everything he wanted to do or have. I can't. stand. whining. and. crying. Especially when it's completely unnecessary. If you want a freaking apple, just ask for it, don't whine and cry about it!! If you want to watch Chuggington, just ask, don't whine and cry about it! His first request for
anything was punctuated by whining and crying. I ended up putting him in time out for 90 seconds, where he screamed like someone was cutting his arms off. It was brutal, and really grated on my nerves. The whining and crying got a little bit better after that (after he nursed for a good 10 minutes to "recover" from such an unreasonable and terrible consequence... can you just feel the sarcasm oozing through your computer screen?). But it was still a very frustrating day.
Thankfully we were invited to my parents for dinner, so shortly after Noah's nap we left to go there. I knew there would be a drastic difference in Noah's behaviour once we got there, and there was. No more whining and crying, just our happy, pleasant boy. So those few hours were enjoyable, at least. My brother and SIL had come to town (not for my birthday, but because my Dad had his shoulder replaced on Wednesday), and it was nice to see them.
So my birthday was just
meh. I don't know why exactly, but I'm in a bit of a funk. Things from my last post are stressing me out. Then I had a really stressful Thursday, which I'm not going to recap right now. I'm feeling easily bothered, and I have very little patience.
I guess it's probably just a mixture of real-life stress and pregnancy hormones. Everything seems worse when you're jacked up on pregnancy hormones.
Okay, I think I'm going to take this time to try to list some positive things going on in my life right now. Maybe it'll help me get out of the funk.
1. I'm pregnant. Hello, that's pretty awesome.
2. I'm pretty positive I've been feeling the baby fluttering around in there for the past week. I know it's early, but I was feeling little mystery flutters this early with Noah, so it only makes sense. Plus, considering the size and location of my uterus (the top of it is just about even with my belly button), it makes even more sense that I would feel it earlier than normal.
3. We have an ultrasound tomorrow! We haven't seen this Bambino in almost 6 weeks, and I'm really excited to see him/her looking like a real baby instead of a kidney bean. Plus at my clinic they broadcast the ultrasound onto a big flatscreen on the wall, so it's really a neat experience.
And if there's enough time we might be able to see some 3D images!
4. Justin and Noah are
best friends lately. For awhile there (maybe about 6 months ago), poor Daddy was way down on Noah's list of favourite people. Numbers 1 through 9 were Mommy, and Daddy barely hung onto the number 10 spot. But no longer! I am still number 1 (especially when it comes to Noah being hurt or upset or scared, or when he wakes up in the morning or after nap). But the rest of the time, MAN is he happy to be hanging out with his Dad! No more whining for Mommy! In fact, if Justin has to take a shower or go do something else, Noah doesn't give a crap the fact that I'm still there; he just gets sad that Justin is gone. It just makes me so happy to see them be so close, and it's great timing with the pregnancy and impending baby.
5. We've been able to go to church again for the past 2 weeks!
6. Noah is loving babies. He gets excited whenever he sees one ("There's a baby!!" "Hi little baby!"). He asks if he can hug and kiss the baby (ie. my belly). If he's on my lap he says "Careful of the baby!!!" And today in the church nursery I was holding a baby boy (about 3 or 4 months old), and he was sooo sweet to him, caressing his face, and leaning forward to give him an adorable kiss on the cheek. This makes me really look forward to the new baby arriving.
7. Next weekend is Easter, and that means my whole immediate family will be together in one place (there are currently 13 of us, and 2 babies on the way). Last time we were all together was Christmas, so this will be nice.
Okay, I'm feeling like I'm in a better mood. I just need to focus on the good stuff instead of the bad/annoying stuff. Off to do other things!