Another Door Closed

A couple of weeks ago Justin and I decided to pursue public adoption. I haven't been in a blogging mood, so I didn't post about it. However, we decided that even if we could get pregnant, we'd still like to adopt. Here in Canada public adoption is free, so it seemed our best option for pursuing both infertility treatments and adoption at the same time.

We've been playing phone tag with our adoption worker for the past couple of weeks. Today I actually talked to her.

Unfortunately we just missed the open house meeting that you have to go to before they start the adoption process. The next one isn't until October. And the infant list is closed - anything under 2 years old is not going to happen.

I'm so bummed. Is this God closing a door on us? Are we not supposed to pursue adoption? Does this mean he has it planned for us that we'll get pregnant soon, so he doesn't want us to waste our time doing home studies when we're just going to get pregnant? Or is it just one more slap in the face? Ha ha, something else sucks for you.

I'm sad. I didn't realize I had started counting on this so much.