Pregnancy Brain

My pregnancy brain is getting out of hand. Here is just a couple of more examples of my retardedness.

I logged onto my bank account today to make sure everything was well. Turns out Kia, who said they weren't going to be taking a car payment until September, took one on Friday. And that meant that since my chequing account only had $75 in it (I had just transferred all our money to our savings account), it took a whole $500 from our line of credit. Which we now have to pay 2 days of interest on, because I didn't catch it until now.

Maybe that's not that big a deal, but it really bothers me because it's not like we didn't have the money for the payment - I just put it in the savings account so we would earn interest, and because the stupid dealer told us our first payment wouldn't come off until September. And now we will have to pay interest charges on money we shouldn't have had to pay interest on.

Anyway, so I tried to transfer money from our savings to our chequing, so that I could put the money back on the line of credit so the balance on that would be back to zero, and so that I would have a bit more money in our chequing in case something else was coming out that I didn't know about. My stupid-self accidentally transfered the money backwards, from my chequing to my savings. But since my chequing didn't have $500 in it, it took it out of the line of credit to put it in the savings account. So then I had $1000 taken out of the LOC.

You'd think I'd be able to handle a simple transfer, since I do it ALL THE TIME. Apparently not.

Anyway, I eventually figured it out and all the money is where it's supposed to be. But then, because of the car payment being taken off, I suddenly remembered that I was supposed to go to our car insurance guy and sign papers this past Tuesday. I completely forgot about it. And it's not like I just forgot about it for a day or two. It is now SUNDAY. I forgot about it for almost a week.

I am going to have to glue myself my my planner again. I don't trust myself with anything.

Nonsense

In keeping with what I said in my last post, this morning Justin filled me in on a little conversation we had when he got to bed.

Lauren: "Don't forget to count your cities."

Justin: "My cities?"

Lauren: "Yeah, you might not have enough."

I have absolutely no memory of this.

Dreams

For the past several nights I haven't been sleeping peacefully. I'm doing a lot of dream talking and sleepwalking that wakes me and Justin up - me more than Justin... that guy can sleep like a rock. I'll start whimpering or talking in my sleep several times a night, and I can never sleep through that. And a couple of the past few nights I've gone sleepwalking and talking nonsense to Justin (who always goes to bed later than me). I'm wondering if it's pregnancy related.

It started with a nightmare, in which I started whimpering out loud. Justin actually woke up and was like "What's the matter hunny?? Are you okay?" And I whimpered back to him "He tried to steal my wallet." So he cuddled with me and said "Ohhh, it's okay, you're okay." It was sweet.

Then the next night I woke as Justin was in our bathroom getting ready for bed. I didn't wake up until I was standing outside the door knocking on it, but I had to go pee so bad. He opened the door and I whimpered "You need to get out!!! I really have to pee so bad!!!" It felt like such an emergency to me. Like he couldn't go any slower. If he hadn't vacated the bathroom right that second I probably would have peed in the kitchen sink, the urge was so bad and I was so disoriented.

The next night I woke up in the kitchen while Justin was putting dishes in the dishwasher right before he came to bed. I was talking nonsense to him, but I was trying so hard to make sense because there was something important I wanted to say. No idea what it was. The only part that made sense was when I said something about not being sure how far along I am. And then I think I was awake enough at that point to realize I wasn't making any sense and I was like "I don't know what I'm talking about." Justin tried to hug me but I was like "No! No hugging." He always seems to want to hug me at times when hugging is the last thing I want to do.

Then last night I woke up from a dream about school because I was takling to the principal about something and I said the words "My classroom" out loud.

Those are just the instances that I remember. I'm turning into a bit of a freak.

First OB Appointment

8 weeks 1 day

I went to my first OB appointment today (I don't count the one two weeks ago when I saw the fill-in doctor for a Diclectin prescription). It was great! I love my OB - he actually delivered me! And I've seen him at least 10 times in the past year and a half so we have a really good relationship. He was pretty pumped that I'm pregnant.

Anyway, he did a pelvic and said that if he didn't know any better he'd say that I'm a lot farther along, because my uterus is the size of somebody who's 12 weeks. He said that at 12 weeks your uterus is just starting to come out of the pelvic cavity, and mine is already pretty far out of there. It made me feel a little bit less ridiculous for being so round already. Apparently I do have a large uterus! It's not all bloat.

My next ultrasound is scheduled for September 11th. I have one scheduled for the 17th with the RE, but I might cancel that one (I haven't yet though, just in case I want to go to two in a row). And my next OB appointment is on the 17th (same day as the RE ultrasound).

The ultrasound on the 11th doesn't seem that far away, because I go back to work on the 8th, and going back to work feels like it's coming up pretty fast.

I'm still nauseous most of the time, despite the Diclectin. I had a really bad night last night for nausea. I'm not sure why, but I think it's because I didn't have a high carb snack right before bed. I'm feeling normal now, but I felt really awful all night and all morning. My throat kept spasming and trying to gag. And Ihad to bring a kitchen chair into the bathroom to sit on while I was getting ready because I felt so awful this morning. I think that will be my new way of coping.

Can't Hide It

I have come to the realization that I can't hide my pregnancy if I plan to go out in public. It doesn't matter what kind of shirt I wear (and I have a lot of loose flowy tops), you can still see my round belly.

I know just the very bottom half is baby, but I have so much bloat popping out. I've always been one of those people whose flat belly pops out a bit after I eat or drink. It has always seemed that my abdomen has absolutely no extra room in it for anything other than empty organs. Well, slower digestion, retaining water, and having a uterus larger than a grapefruit seems to have amplified this to the extreme.

There's a part of me that's embarassed that I look almost 5 months pregnant. There's another part that just doesn't care that much because I never wanted to be one of those people who take forever to look pregnant. Sure, I'm totally to the opposite extreme, but oh well. It's not like it's a fat stomach. It's just majorly bloated. All the time. Every day.

Here's a picture to prove that I'm not making this up:

Appointment Scheduled

My first OB appointment is scheduled for Tuesday, August 18th. I'll be 8 weeks and 1 day. I just called this morning, and I wasn't expecting to get in so quickly, but I do need more Diclectin next week so it's good that I did.

I'm interested to find out what my first appointment with the OB will actually entail. Since I live in Canada it's not like the appointments in the states where you get ultrasounds at your appointments and stuff like that. I'm pretty confident our OBs don't have ultrasound machines in their offices - we have to go to the hospital for those. I wonder if I will get the ultrasound that people usually get around 9-12 weeks here, seeing as I already had one at 7 weeks. I hope so - anything could happen between now and then. Plus I'd like to see our baby looking even more like a baby than he/she did at the 7 week ultrasound.

Speaking of which, I finally posted my ultrasound picture in the ultrasound post, but I'll put it here too!

The round circle on the right is called the yolk sac - it's not the baby's head (although it is positioned perfectly so that it looks like it could be). The little thing to the left is the baby. It's facing down, head on the right, rump on the left. Cutest thing I've ever seen.

Last night we were out for drinks (for everyone else) and appetizers with some friends Justin grew up with. They didn't know that I'm pregnant (and I wasn't really planning on telling them), but for some reason the "normal order of things" came up, where after you're career established and have the right person, you get married and have babies. We were the only married people there, so the "having babies" part was directed toward us. One of the girls said "When you do have babies, I want to babysit. I love babies." So I patted her leg and said "How about next April? The baby will be about a month old."

I couldn't resist. Her reaction was hilarious.

First Ultrasound

I'm finally back in town from my ultrasound. It was wonderful!! Hearing and seeing the heartbeat was just the most amazing thing. It brought tears to my eyes. Then we had a meeting with my RE afterward (I didn't know this was part of the deal) and he said it was a perfect ultrasound (he used the word perfect), the baby measures exactly on schedule, the heartbeat was 146bpm, and everything looks amazing. I love the little picture we got... you can actually tell which part of the baby is the head and which part is the rump (I love the word rump) without somebody having to point it out.

So I'm on cloud nine. Apparently though, I calculated the due date one day off. I didn't know they count that first day as day 1 of being pregnant, so I'm one day further along than I thought and my due date is actually March 29, not March 30.

My next ultrasound with the RE (that I know of) is the nuchal translucency and that's at 12 weeks 3 days. September 17. My OB might do his own ultrasound before that, though. I don't know, I haven't actually had an appointment with him yet. I wasn't going to do the nuchal translucency screening, but the ultrasound tech just booked me in for it and gave me the appointment time without asking me if I wanted it or not. And it's hard to turn down an opportunity for an ultrasound.

The best part about the meeting with the RE was him telling us that they're still our doctors, and anytime we're the slightest bit freaked out about something we can just hop in the car and go there and they'll do an ultrasound to check everything out. We don't even have to call first. That's a relief to me. Although I'm going to try not to freak out.

I'll post the ultrasound picture later on. I have to scan it, and I don't have the energy right now:)

(Edited to add picture)

Waiting

7 weeks

Our first ultrasound is tomorrow. Finally! It's weird to think that a lot of people have already had a couple of ultrasounds by this point. My RE doesn't bother doing one until 7 weeks, since you probably wouldn't see the heartbeat anyway, and then would just be unnecessarily worried. But there are other things you could find out - like how many babies are in there - that would be nice information to have! I really haven't thought about it too much, and I'm just expecting there to be one. The odds of there being 2 are just too low for me to really even consider (with my medication protocol there was a 20-25% chance of having twins, but you were also supposed to develop 3-5 mature eggs, and I only had 2 mature eggs). But it does add a little bit of suspense!

I'm trying not to stress out about the u/s. I've been feeling really sick, so I'm taking that as a sign that our baby is growing and developing just as it should, so I shouldn't worry about what's going on in there. As much as I hate being nauseous 24/7, whenever I have a 20 minute period of time where I don't feel nauseous (extremely rare, but does happen about once every day or two), it freaks me out and when I suddenly am overcome by it again I'm relieved.

Yesterday evening I had a brief period of time where I felt pretty good, and I ran around the house doing things - unloading the dishwasher, loading it back up again, putting the vaccuum cleaner away, and putting in a load of laundry (why do men never do any of these things unless you specifically ask them to?). Feeling good was just starting to freak me out when I suddenly got so nauseous I couldn't even move. I laid down on my bed, and when I tried to even turn my head to get crackers from my bedside table my stomach lurched and I almost threw up.

Like I said, as much as it sucks, it's still reassuring.

6 Weeks 3 Days

My last post was at 5 weeks 5 days, and I mentioned that my nausea was not terrible at that point and that it was mostly in the afternoon and evenings.

Well that sure changed in a hurry.

About a day later my nausea got a lot worse. And then A LOT worse. And then so bad I had to get an emergency appointment with my OB for a prescription for Diclectin. The Diclectin seemed to help a lot, but I was still feeling pretty sick. This is my third day on it and I'm almost back to feeling as nauseous as I felt before I went on it. Apparently that's how rapidly my nausea is progressing.

I also tried sea bands. But I hate those stupid things. I'm not finding them to help my nausea at all. But they ARE making my hands extremely swollen and sore. I finally took them off this afternoon. They're only making me more uncomfortable, and that's the last thing I need right now.

I can't stand this nausea. How long is this going to last?! I'm going insane. It wouldn't be so bad if it was only part of the day. But it's 24/7. Every moment of every day and every night. All I've done for 3 days is lie in bed in misery. Thank goodness it's summer vacation and I don't have to work right now.

I hate to complain, because I'm so happy to be pregnant. But constant intense nausea is the kind of thing that's hard to ignore.

5 Weeks 5 Days

I have a new pregnancy symptom, and it's a weird one: congestion. My nose is runny and stuffed. Now, I'm on summer vacation right now, and this week I really haven't gone anywhere. My husband isn't sick, so there's no one I know of who could've given me a cold. Therefore, I'm deducing that this must be a pregnancy symptom. It is definitely listed as one. Apparently pregnancy causes your mucous membranes to swell, and for you to produce more mucous... and not just down there. It happens in your nose, too.

Whatever the reason for it is, it's a pain in the neck. I kept waking up last night because if I was lying on the left side of my head I would feel a slow dribble making it's way down my left nostril. It's pretty annoying to be woken up by that constantly when you're already being woken up by having to pee 5 TIMES in the night.

That's right, I peed 5 times last night. 5 times in 8 hours. You'd think I'd have to be guzzling water in between every bathroom break for that to happen. Nope. Not a sip. It was extremely annoying. Especially since it's a Saturday and my husband's alarm went off at 7:20 and I felt too hungry and nauseous to fall back asleep.

So here's my new list of symptoms:
-Congestion
-Peeing a lot
-Extreme hunger
-Indigestion
-Sore boobs (the worst at night)
-Nausea (it's not terrible at this point; it's the worst in the afternoon and evening)
-Fatigue (but not terrible fatigue)